
“Lost for good?” Though I gave it little attention, this thought did bounce about in my head. Oh, where to begin…

The slugs are as big as your hand! AAAAh!
Oregon is beautiful, green, and alive. I finally began to feel confident again about our place on the trail as we began hiking from Cascade Locks. The trail much reminded me of my favorite parts of the Appalachian Trail, and I was almost skipping along despite the weight of my pack. We hiked 17 miles our first day, and 23 the second. We had a tough river crossing and a steep 6 mile climb, but other than that the trail was simple and beautiful. Some snow here and there, but nothing we couldn’t tackle. Our third day, yesterday, we planned to do 7 miles into Timberline Lodge. We would eat a hot meal, buy some more food, and continue on our way to Ollalie Lake.
We knew we were going to be confronted with more snow, but we could not have imagined the state of the trail. I barely want to type this for I have no desire to relive the day again in my mind. Yet, at the same time, this is our blog, our journal, and I want it to be honest and personal. I want to remember everything. So here goes: The snow started off in patches, and did not seem to be a big deal. The trail is well marked and pretty easy to follow. Then suddenly, it was gone. Snow covered everything.
We have been through this before so we just continued hiking up, since we knew we were supposed to be climbing 2000 feet. We climbed and climbed and climbed, until the clouds finally began to break and we caught a view of where we were heading- directly up Mt. Hood. We turned to the right and began looking more desperately for the trail. The next several hours we searched and guessed where we needed to head. I get dizzy just thinking about it. We had eaten all of our protein bars at this point and only had dehydrated meals left. We were bushwhacking and grabbing on to trees to keep from slipping down dangerous slopes. We were post-holing to our waists.
It is one thing to climb a mountain as a thru-hiker. You are already worn thin from previous hiking and too little food. You see the top and you know you have got to go for it. You get yourself excited by imagining the view from atop, and the muscle you will build along the way. As you begin your climb, you feel the weight of your pack more than ever before. The mountain drains you physically. The mountain drains you mentally by reminding you of all the climbs you have made so far, and how many more you have left to do. You start to think about how you will be doing this exact same thing everyday for the next five months. You begin to question why you are doing this to yourself? Finally you are at the top, and what do you do? You keep going. Climbing mountains are tough as a thru-hiker, but climbing the same mountains covered in snow is a completely different world.

Oops!
My first fall in the snow was on the second day. I slipped, hit rocks, and had to grab onto thorns to keep from sliding further down the mountain. The third day, my body would have wished for this simple fall over and over instead of what it endured. We were relieved to find the trail, but celebrated a bit too quickly. After being lost in the snow for several hours, we had to cross a freezing cold river. Stephen just left his socks and shoes on given that they were already soaked through from the snow. We crossed the river and headed up the trail- less than 4 miles less to Timberline Lodge. Oh, but who would have known, the trail was completely demolished. Avalanches and mudslides have destroyed this section of the trail. We had absolutely no choice but to leave the trail and make our own way up the next 2,000 ft climb. How frustrating! We began heading straight up, once again. By now though, our bodies were tired and we were very hungry. We did not want to stop to cook a meal, because we knew we could eat at Timberline Lodge and we did not want to waste a nutritional dehydrated meal. We did not know what sort of re-supply there would be at the lodge, and we still had about 50 miles to Ollalie Lake. Plus, we just wanted to get inside and be warm and safe!
My mind was still racing with motivation but my body was having trouble keeping up. As I pushed off from a small pine tree and hustled up the steep incline to the next small tree, I noticed I was breathing heavily- but wasn’t that to be expected? Yet when I reached up and grabbed a hold of the next tree I gasped for air and no air came. Oh no, not now…but yes, an asthma attack.
I have exercise induced asthma and had three asthma attacks on the AT. Asthma attacks are not a big deal to me. From my experience, they are only a problem if I panic during them. I learned from the first few that I do not need to panic, I just need to keep my mind calm and wait for the air to come. I had warned Stephen before the hike and a couple times since that I might have one, and not to worry. I sound like I am dying and tears stream down my face, but I know what I need to to and I do it. So during the attack I was not scared for my life, but just like every other one, I did feel like I was fighting for it. I knew I would win and be fine. The downside is they completely, and I mean completely wear me out. So after some Albuterol and a few minutes of normal breathing, I tired to get going again. I had no choice, I was hanging from a tree on the side of the mountain. And that was my breaking point. After the attack I just felt like I had nothing else in me and fear took over. I looked down. If I fell, I was not going to stop. If I was lucky I would hit the last tree I used as a hold, but it was too small to keep me from continuing to fall down the side of the mountain. I just hung there, trying to make my next move, trying not to let the fear conquer me and set me off balance.
Have you ever been climbing and reached higher than you felt comfortable? Have you ever been bungee jumping? This is the fear I was experiencing. The fear right before bungee jumping. I know it very well. I am afraid of heights and I have bungee jumped three times, sky diving twice, hang gliding, paragliding… I enjoy these sports because I face my fear, but all the time knowing I will be okay. The difference yesterday was that I did not know I would be okay. It was the same fear but without the parachute, without the harness, without the ropes. It paralyzed me. Stephen crawled down as much as he could and tried to steady himself so he could give me a hand. I had no choice, it was literally go for it or fall. So I gave it everything I did not have left and met Stephen’s hand. He helped pull me up to the next tree and we kept going.

This is what it looked like when the trail disappeared, before it got steep.
Luckily I became a little delusional after that which made everything appear easier. I could keep writing pages, but to sum it up we just kept climbing in the snow. We cut across a mountain we just knew had to be in the direction of the lodge. We were getting much closer when suddenly we came to a glacier canyon. This was most devastating. We had to go up even more of Mt. Hood to get around it. We walked straight up in less than 30 degree weather. This was Stephen’s breaking point. He began stopping every five steps to encourage himself to hike five more. We did not want to stop to eat because it was so cold and we felt like we were really close. Yet once I started seeing spots and almost fell over, we knew we had to. We stopped, cooked a meal, tried to warm up our toes, and then kept climbing. We knew we were close, for we were now higher than most of the ski lift. We hiked to the top of it, and saw the lodge at the bottom. We literally ran down to it. HOOOORRRRAAAAYYYY!!!!!!
We do not want to go back out there =( Since the lodge is literally on the trail, we knew it would typically be a place most hikers would stop for a night or at least a meal. Yet we also knew that no one had done what we just had. There were no footprints and the trail was literally impossible to walk on. We asked at the front desk if they had seen any thru-hikers. A man said yes, he had seen one. We asked which direction the hiker had been heading and he said, “I don’t know. He was really out of it and I could not tell from where he had come.”
So my big question is- where is everybody else? A couple hundred came out this year with the intention of hiking the entire trail, where are they? Are they battling though the Sierras? Did they just skip that section and they are in northern California with sunny skies and green hills? Did they go home?

Where is the trail?
I have been researching on the Pacific Crest Trail Association website and Trail Journals. Seems to be that almost every south bounder, if not every one, has aborted their hike or headed to another part of the trail. A lot of people have gone home saying this is simply not the year to hike the PCT. Some people are attempting southern Oregon. Some have skipped the Sierras and are trying out northern California. One person who chose this route documented,”The most experienced mountaineers were not making it through the Sierras, so we are skipping this section and heading north”. Yet reading more, some folks are fighting through the Sierras as we speak. There are reports of multiple avalanches and of course, very difficult water crossings. One that really gets me is, “He told me he crossed a river, pack over his head and water up to his armpits- the man is six foot four.”
So I have to say I feel better knowing that almost every other hiker is as dumbfounded as we are, all over the place and in search of anywhere in decent shape to hike some miles. Time is crunching on all of us. We have decided not to stress about miles, but to just do as much as we can every day and hope that this year brings a late winter. We want to be home, but we will not give up. Charles is our motivation right now, and he is the picture that stands for the thousands of homeless animals and people around the world. We know what it is like to be cold. We know what it is like to be hungry. We know what it is like to wish to be inside with someone to take care of us, or at least to tell us we will be okay. We have put ourselves further out of our comfort zone than we could have imagined, and we keep doing it in hopes to raise awareness for those who do not have a choice. I do not know what the end of our PCT story will be, but I do know we will not stop until we have given it everything we have left, and then some more.
feather

We miss you Prince Charles!
Spreading Blink Love all over the planet!
The Blink’s Blog readers have poured in with touching accounts and donations alike to remind us why this blog is not only worth reading, but worth supporting the causes for which Heather & Stephen risk their lives daily. Thank you readers and supporters… YOU ROCK!
The list of supporters continues to grow and Blink Love has recently received some very generous donations from those listed below!
Just in case you missed some of the comments on this blog, there is an all-star list of posted below.
The Blink Team seems to make friends wherever they go… and it is amazing to watch as these friends become supporters and leave messages of hope here on the blog.
Enjoy, spread the word, and keep the comments rolling!
-Allie
Sandi on June 10, 2010
. I’m not sure I’m feeling quite adventurous enough at the moment to embark on a 6 month hike… but it sure is great to live vicariously thru Heather & Stephen and I feel inspired by their determination. I’ve been a member of Best Friend’s Animal Sanctuary for many years so I’m very much interested in helping animals and I love the charity aspect of the hike. So all in all, you guys are a true inspiration to this 43 year old empty nester who’s just beginning to test the waters of adventure in her own life
. Keep up the good work and thanks for keeping us posted! Much love & good thoughts to you both!!”
“So why am I reading the post? Well, there are many reasons. First off, I’m happy to know Heather & Stephen are safe & sound and still on their journey. I love seeing the pics (that snake looked huge!) and it’s so interesting to hear how they get thru challenges like snowy peaks, etc. I’ve cared for my autistic stepson full time for the last 24 years and recently he got his very own house with a staff, so I’m just beginning to realize that there’s a whole world out there waiting for me to explore
Seagrass on June 12, 2010
“I read this blog because Heather Kierstead has showed me that angels exist in this world. She has taught me how to love everything and everyone. And she has taught me how to find something special about every single animal I meet. She inspired me to adopt a little kitty.
She is the most amazing cowgirl alive and she just so happens to be my best friend. Oh yeah…Stephen Dunn is her perfect cowboy.”
Maia on June 10, 2010
“Reason 1: I support this cause (by reading the blog) because I feel it represents young people taking responsability for what is theirs. This world, these animals & these people are yours!! I love the fact that you want them to be/ feel better and that you are getting involved.
Reason 2: I read this bolg because i like adventures out in the wildlife!
Reason 3: I also read it to know more about these two crazy characters i’m keen on.
Reason 4: i like how is written.
Besos! Chauuuu!!”
Paula on June 11, 2010
“I read the blog because it reminds me of what is RIGHT in the world. These are 2 of the most amazingly positive people I know that not only really LOVE all animals, but care so much about everything and everyone. I really enjoy hearing about the latest experiences they are going through, and the fact that they update often is great. In a world where too many people are out for only themselves, it gives me such hope to see people like Heather and Stephen trying so hard to make a difference in the world. I have to bow to the BLINK LOVE CREW!!! They have touched the lives of so many people, and if you have not had the fortunate experience of meeting them, I do hope you get to one day… THANK YOU for the great updates Stephen and Heather! I MISS YOU GUYS SO MUCH. I care because the organizations that are benefitting from this incredible and sometimes dangerous hike (Forsyth Humane Society, FurEver Friends, and Best Friends Animal Society in Utah), are 3 of my favorite non-profit groups. I remember several years ago, a little girl was missing in North Carolina for a day or more, when a stray dog found her after she had fallen into a well. Even though the dog saved this child’s life, the county decided the dog was unadoptable, and he was scheduled to be euthanized. Best Friends stepped in and took this dog to their sanctuary where he could live out the rest of his life in a great environment. There are many wonderful stories from all of these organizations about the lives they have touched and the great work they are doing. Each one of these organization are not just about finding homes for the many unwanted animals, but are big in EDUCATING the public, and making this world a better place!!!
What’s the big deal? One of the messages that the Blink Love crew is trying to get out is to give back…..Where most of us cannot go on an adventure like this, we can all do something. Get out and volunteer to help those less fortunate; blog with Blink Love (I’ve heard that they really like it when people blog with them); if you can spare a dollar or more, donate to Blink Love. Instead of giving a gift to someone that has everything, consider making a donation to Blink Love, and send a nice card stating that you made a donation in honor of them. It’s easy, and will make such a difference in the lives of so many.”
DeWitt on June 14, 2010
“My heart is in my throat over what has been written here – I second it all! As Heather’s mom, I like to know what she’s up to… But I also forget who is writing as I get caught up in their fantastic tales. Living in the wilderness is sooo not what i would like to do and I read to try and get a smidgen of understanding about why they like it. It’s all too amazing to me! I love the photos and videos and think Allie is doing a great job with the site. Thanks very much to you all!! And so much love to Cowboy Stephen & my Feather”
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